Last night Luke and I watched our wedding video. I know most people watch theirs on their anniversary, but sadly we don't because we are having way too much fun doing other things (or at least that is what I like to think). Anyway, we watched it last night and it was so sweet to be able to see our facial expressions, how we interacted, and even our dear friends and family! It was an awesome day, and I cannot believe we are three and a half years later! Here we are married, getting through seminary, moving into a house, having a baby!??!?! How did all this happen, and how have we survived it all?
So fun to take a trip back, and even more exciting to see a glimpse of our future. Even though none of it is for certain the one thing I do know and can count on is a Heavenly Father who loves us more then we know and I have the most amazing, loving, caring, godly husband in the world (and he is also going to be an amazing daddy)!
Lilypie First Birthday tickers
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Saturday, December 4, 2010
5 months
It's hard to believe that I have been pregnant for a little over 5 months! It's even harder to believe that our little girl will be here in about 4 months!!! Where did the time go? It only took 22 weeks, but I am finally feeling a little bit "normal" (whatever that it). I am not getting sick everyday, I don't feel like I am going to throw up at the drop of a hat, and I am definitely a fan of food again. I didn't think I was ever going to like food again! The plus side of that is that I haven't gained that much weight.
Things are still going well with our sweet girl! We are starting to register for baby stuff which brings a whole new reality to our life. I can feel her move a lot more with each week that goes by, and Luke has felt her once or twice (it is super hard to get him to feel her when she is moving).
Luke and I have decided that we are going to use cloth diapers, and I have been researching what that entails. The problem with researching is that you get so much information that you don't know which end is up. I was totally overwhelmed with the whole process and had no idea where to start. Thankfully I have a couple friends who are experts at cloth diapers, so I started asking them for advice. My friend Becca gave me great resources to look at that was clear and exactly what I needed, and Laura let me come to her house and see first had what I needed and how everything worked. I am still a little unsure, but I know what I need to buy and I think I know where to start :) We will see!!
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
GIRL!
Ok, I am obviously several days behind on my thankfulness! I have been caught up in baby, packing, and holidays. So maybe I will start that back up later but for now, I just have to post the happenings of last Friday :)
Let me start with last week. I had been counting down the days until we found out if we were having a boy or girl I LOVE surprises, but if I know about them it just eats away at me and so I usually just find a way to figure them out (ask Luke's brother Ben, it drives him nuts how I usually find out all my surprises). But obviously there was no way to find out the gender of our baby until Friday, so I was forced to wait, and wait, and wait. It was killing us! FINALLY Friday came! I woke up early that morning in anticipation of 1:00. We had a half day at school and I was busy...we had a lot of things to get done in only 3 hours of school! So being at school was a good distraction for me. Once school was out Luke picked me up. I was super excited all morning until I got into the car and then panic came over me. I was flooded with thoughts of knowing what my baby was and not being a good parent, and all kinds of things. I quickly got a grip of myself and before we knew it I was checking in at the doctor's office. Luke and I sat on the couch just talking about how in minutes we were going to find out what our sweet little one was! We were once again excited.
The nurse finally called up to the back. We went into the ultra sound room an I took my position on the bed, pulled my shirt up and got cold gel poured onto my belly. The nurse explained everything she was going to do and asked if we had any questions. I told her about Luke's cousin who had a baby that morning and was told it was a girl, but came out a boy, and how sure she could be of our baby's gender. She quickly assured Luke and I that she had been doing this for over thirty years and will not tell us what the baby is unless she is 100% sure. That was a relief in one way, but I was a bit sad thinking what if she couldn't get a clear shot, or the baby wouldn't corporate....But my thoughts were interrupted by the super cute baby on the screen!
This is the first image we saw. Our sweet little one with her had over her face (so dramatic)! It was a moment beyond words. It was neat to see her and then see Luke's face as he saw his daughter for the second time. We could see her moving, her heart pumping, brain working, bones developing, blood flowing, and even counted her fingers and toes. It was really amazing! We had asked the nurse to write down the gender of the baby in put it in a sealed envelope. So when it was time to see what it was, she informed us to look away. Neither of us did. We just gazed at our perfect baby as the nurse was jiggling my belly trying to get the baby to open her legs, when all of a sudden they were wide open and we were all looking at the gender. Luke and I were trying to figure it out, as we both were not quite sure, but the nurse new for sure! After we checked some other things out she wrote the gender down, sealed the envelope, gave us a ton of pictures of our baby, and sent us back out into the waiting room to wait to see the doctor. While we we waiting Luke and I just stared at all the pictures and the enveloping knowing that the nurse was 100% sure what the gender was and we had it in our hands. It took everything in my not to open the envelope! Luke ended up taking the envelope and putting it in his pocket so I would open it.
After the appointment we ran a few errands, checked on the dogs, and went out to eat to celebrate our baby. We went to Olive Garden where we go for all of our family special moments. It was fun to talk about baby stuff and life. We ordered a yummy dinner, ate that fast, and on to dessert where our plan unfolds. Luke told the waitress our story of being pregnant and the envelope and asked her to bring out a black tie chocolate moose pie if it was a boy and a raspberry cheese cake if it was a girl. We had a sweet old waitress who was VERY excited to do this for us. She went in the back and then brought out our dessert all covered up. Now while she was gone it seemed like forever, but Luke and I each shared what we thought it was. I thought it was a boy since we each had some boy dreams (we each had one girl dream, but more boy dreams), Luke thought he saw it in the ultrasound, and I just thought it was a boy from the beginning. Ok, back to the waitress, she had the dessert all covered up and asked us if we were ready. Luke and I both said yes and she uncovered the raspberry cheese cake. I immediately squealed, covered my mouth and cried. I was SHOCKED! It was a fantastic type of shock. Luke started tearing up too. Everyone was looking at us, and the waitress handed us the envelope. When I looked at the paper Ann, our nurse wrote: "GIRL :), yes I am sure". It was so cool. After the manager came over and told us that his wife was expecting and it was their first one. He thought our idea of finding out was pretty neat (we stole the idea from some friends of ours). We called family and let them know, and then we were off to Buy Buy Baby to buy something for our little girl from her daddy and mommy. It was so weird walking around knowing what was inside me. Luke and I were walking on clouds the rest of the night...we still are a little :)
Let me start with last week. I had been counting down the days until we found out if we were having a boy or girl I LOVE surprises, but if I know about them it just eats away at me and so I usually just find a way to figure them out (ask Luke's brother Ben, it drives him nuts how I usually find out all my surprises). But obviously there was no way to find out the gender of our baby until Friday, so I was forced to wait, and wait, and wait. It was killing us! FINALLY Friday came! I woke up early that morning in anticipation of 1:00. We had a half day at school and I was busy...we had a lot of things to get done in only 3 hours of school! So being at school was a good distraction for me. Once school was out Luke picked me up. I was super excited all morning until I got into the car and then panic came over me. I was flooded with thoughts of knowing what my baby was and not being a good parent, and all kinds of things. I quickly got a grip of myself and before we knew it I was checking in at the doctor's office. Luke and I sat on the couch just talking about how in minutes we were going to find out what our sweet little one was! We were once again excited.
The nurse finally called up to the back. We went into the ultra sound room an I took my position on the bed, pulled my shirt up and got cold gel poured onto my belly. The nurse explained everything she was going to do and asked if we had any questions. I told her about Luke's cousin who had a baby that morning and was told it was a girl, but came out a boy, and how sure she could be of our baby's gender. She quickly assured Luke and I that she had been doing this for over thirty years and will not tell us what the baby is unless she is 100% sure. That was a relief in one way, but I was a bit sad thinking what if she couldn't get a clear shot, or the baby wouldn't corporate....But my thoughts were interrupted by the super cute baby on the screen!
This is the first image we saw. Our sweet little one with her had over her face (so dramatic)! It was a moment beyond words. It was neat to see her and then see Luke's face as he saw his daughter for the second time. We could see her moving, her heart pumping, brain working, bones developing, blood flowing, and even counted her fingers and toes. It was really amazing! We had asked the nurse to write down the gender of the baby in put it in a sealed envelope. So when it was time to see what it was, she informed us to look away. Neither of us did. We just gazed at our perfect baby as the nurse was jiggling my belly trying to get the baby to open her legs, when all of a sudden they were wide open and we were all looking at the gender. Luke and I were trying to figure it out, as we both were not quite sure, but the nurse new for sure! After we checked some other things out she wrote the gender down, sealed the envelope, gave us a ton of pictures of our baby, and sent us back out into the waiting room to wait to see the doctor. While we we waiting Luke and I just stared at all the pictures and the enveloping knowing that the nurse was 100% sure what the gender was and we had it in our hands. It took everything in my not to open the envelope! Luke ended up taking the envelope and putting it in his pocket so I would open it. After the appointment we ran a few errands, checked on the dogs, and went out to eat to celebrate our baby. We went to Olive Garden where we go for all of our family special moments. It was fun to talk about baby stuff and life. We ordered a yummy dinner, ate that fast, and on to dessert where our plan unfolds. Luke told the waitress our story of being pregnant and the envelope and asked her to bring out a black tie chocolate moose pie if it was a boy and a raspberry cheese cake if it was a girl. We had a sweet old waitress who was VERY excited to do this for us. She went in the back and then brought out our dessert all covered up. Now while she was gone it seemed like forever, but Luke and I each shared what we thought it was. I thought it was a boy since we each had some boy dreams (we each had one girl dream, but more boy dreams), Luke thought he saw it in the ultrasound, and I just thought it was a boy from the beginning. Ok, back to the waitress, she had the dessert all covered up and asked us if we were ready. Luke and I both said yes and she uncovered the raspberry cheese cake. I immediately squealed, covered my mouth and cried. I was SHOCKED! It was a fantastic type of shock. Luke started tearing up too. Everyone was looking at us, and the waitress handed us the envelope. When I looked at the paper Ann, our nurse wrote: "GIRL :), yes I am sure". It was so cool. After the manager came over and told us that his wife was expecting and it was their first one. He thought our idea of finding out was pretty neat (we stole the idea from some friends of ours). We called family and let them know, and then we were off to Buy Buy Baby to buy something for our little girl from her daddy and mommy. It was so weird walking around knowing what was inside me. Luke and I were walking on clouds the rest of the night...we still are a little :)
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Day 16
Today I am thankful for my amazing husband! I am really thankful for him all the time, but you know when you have those moments where you just get caught up in the unconditional love? That was me this morning. I got up, got ready, and reviewed in my head what I was going to say for this mornings devotions at school. Every Tuesday the staff gets together and one person gives a devotion. This morning was my turn. I was practicing this morning and feeling a little nervous (when you work with the saints that I do, you feel like they should be feeding you this stuff not the other way around! I was a little intimidated!). Before I left the house Luke and I said our "good bye's" and Luke said "I am praying for you". Now that probably doesn't mean a whole lot to most of you, but it means the world to me!
To be lifted up in prayer is a humbling, and yet amazing thing! To have someone take time out of their lives to think and pray for you is an honor. Luke always takes time for me, make sacrifices for me, and puts me second (God is first). He does so much more, but for the sake of time I will leave you with this: We have been writing letters to our sweet baby and this is my next entry:
My sweet baby,
I have to tell you that you have the most amazing daddy in the world. In his first letter to you he told you about a Heavenly Father whom one day you will learn lots more about, and your daddy acts a lot like your Heavenly Father. I cannot wait to see you in his arms, and see your daddy's face the first time he sees you. He already loves you so much and talks about all the things you two are going to do together, and all the things he is going to teach you. Every morning he says good morning to you and touches my belly, and every night he says good night to you. Some times he puts his face on my belly and talks to you, and makes me laugh. There has been a couple times where he has whispered things to you, but will not tell me what he said. Some day I will ask you about those secrets.
I cannot wait for you to come and meet us! You are already treasured by lots of people, but mostly by your daddy. We are making lots of arrangements for your arrival and daddy is working very hard. We will not be able to give you the world that we want to, but I can promise you this little one; you will have the most amazing dad who will love you no matter what, bring you a long with him, show you how to be a godly man who loves Jesus, and teach you along the way. Just like his daddy taught him. Your Gramps is pretty amazing too! I cannot wait for you to come and meet them.
I cannot wait to find out if you are a boy or a girl. I know daddy is very excited (maybe even a little more excited them mommy). I love you to the moon and back, love mommy
To be lifted up in prayer is a humbling, and yet amazing thing! To have someone take time out of their lives to think and pray for you is an honor. Luke always takes time for me, make sacrifices for me, and puts me second (God is first). He does so much more, but for the sake of time I will leave you with this: We have been writing letters to our sweet baby and this is my next entry:
My sweet baby,
I have to tell you that you have the most amazing daddy in the world. In his first letter to you he told you about a Heavenly Father whom one day you will learn lots more about, and your daddy acts a lot like your Heavenly Father. I cannot wait to see you in his arms, and see your daddy's face the first time he sees you. He already loves you so much and talks about all the things you two are going to do together, and all the things he is going to teach you. Every morning he says good morning to you and touches my belly, and every night he says good night to you. Some times he puts his face on my belly and talks to you, and makes me laugh. There has been a couple times where he has whispered things to you, but will not tell me what he said. Some day I will ask you about those secrets.
I cannot wait for you to come and meet us! You are already treasured by lots of people, but mostly by your daddy. We are making lots of arrangements for your arrival and daddy is working very hard. We will not be able to give you the world that we want to, but I can promise you this little one; you will have the most amazing dad who will love you no matter what, bring you a long with him, show you how to be a godly man who loves Jesus, and teach you along the way. Just like his daddy taught him. Your Gramps is pretty amazing too! I cannot wait for you to come and meet them.
I cannot wait to find out if you are a boy or a girl. I know daddy is very excited (maybe even a little more excited them mommy). I love you to the moon and back, love mommy
Monday, November 15, 2010
Day 15
Today I am thankful for family! Whenever there is exciting news to share I know that they are only a phone call away. When we are going crazy and losing our minds, I know that they are just a phone call away. A couple times we have gone through super tough times, and even when we don't feel like talking about it, family sends flowers just to tell you they love you and are thinking and praying for you.
Today I am super thankful for family! They are amazing, and we could not do life without them :)
Today I am super thankful for family! They are amazing, and we could not do life without them :)
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Day 12, 13, and 14
Friday: I was thankful for my health. As a teacher you got exposed to lots of stuff, I mean like stuff you have never heard of before. When Luke and I went in for another round of blood work on our second pregnancy they told us the list of things they were testing for (mainly diseases). When they called with the result they stated that becuase I am a teacher I have been exposed to just about all of them and therefore have built up my immune system (there is one good reason being around snotty, boogery children) :). The last two weeks I have had one student out with strep and a cold, another out with a stomach bug that had her throwing and diarrhea. Then this week I have two more with a stomach bug and something else, not quite sure what it was, but poor thing was just not feeling well. Last year I was able to not catch the swine flu which was spreading like wild fire at my school. I had a couple in my class, as well as several in my after school program that caught it. So with all this being said I am super thankful for being healthy!
Saturday: Yesterday I am thankful for baby sitting. Luke and I have a lot of things coming up that require lots of extra money that we are not entirely sure where it is going to come from. We have been praying about this and the Lord has given me (Luke comes too) the opportunity to baby sit some pretty cute kiddos, and get extra money! Praise the Lord for His provision!
Sunday: Today I am thankful for the glorious weather! Luke and I went for a long walk yesterday and it was wonderful. The weather has been cool here is Dallas, and I think because of that the leaves are actually turning color! Usually they turn yellow and brown, then fall off the trees (not very exciting when you come form New Hampshire). This morning my stomach woke me up as if I haven't eaten in a week. I got up early ate some breakfast and took the dogs out. It was a beautiful (COLD) morning, walking around with the day just starting and glancing at all the colors on the trees, dew on the grass, and Champ and Riley rolling in the tall grass. Crazy dogs :)
Saturday: Yesterday I am thankful for baby sitting. Luke and I have a lot of things coming up that require lots of extra money that we are not entirely sure where it is going to come from. We have been praying about this and the Lord has given me (Luke comes too) the opportunity to baby sit some pretty cute kiddos, and get extra money! Praise the Lord for His provision!
Sunday: Today I am thankful for the glorious weather! Luke and I went for a long walk yesterday and it was wonderful. The weather has been cool here is Dallas, and I think because of that the leaves are actually turning color! Usually they turn yellow and brown, then fall off the trees (not very exciting when you come form New Hampshire). This morning my stomach woke me up as if I haven't eaten in a week. I got up early ate some breakfast and took the dogs out. It was a beautiful (COLD) morning, walking around with the day just starting and glancing at all the colors on the trees, dew on the grass, and Champ and Riley rolling in the tall grass. Crazy dogs :)
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Day 10 and 11
Wednesday: I am thankful for working vehicles. I love our 4 runner and thankful for how reliable it is. Luke just recently purchased a 92 (I believe that is the year) Nissan truck. When we first got it there was something wrong with the clutch, but after my amazing husband spent like 4 hours on it, fixed it and it has been running great ever since!
Thursday: Today I am thankful for my iphone. Luke and I do not have a land line phone and rely fully on our iphones. I love the convenience of having our schedules on it, email from school and home together, and of course my baby aps.
This morning I was eating my cereal while playing a game on my phone. I usually play on my phone as a distraction so I am not focusing on eating, because that usually results in instant throwing up. So anyway I was eating and playing when all of a sudden my phone fell into my cereal!! It was not completely submersed in milk, but pretty close. I immediately scooped it up, took the case off, and dried it with a towel. I turned it off and on and everything seemed ok. I brought it to Luke and he said the sound wasn't working on it. Awesome.....so I took it with me to school hoping it would just dry out and be fine, but when I went to call Luke in the afternoon it was not allowing me to hear him. If I put the call on speaker phone then we can hear each other, but that is it. So my phone was clearly busted :(........ I started to see what I could do about my phone without paying a bagillion dollars fixing it (and we are going to try to sell them).... I did find something that said to blow the phone out with canned air; As soon as I got home I did just that! After I turned it back on I tested it to see if it worked and no such luck! Bummer...... I started to get desperate and was really upset about the phone when I prayed over my phone and as soon as I turned it back on everything worked!!!!! YAY!!! Thank you God for phones that work :)
Thursday: Today I am thankful for my iphone. Luke and I do not have a land line phone and rely fully on our iphones. I love the convenience of having our schedules on it, email from school and home together, and of course my baby aps.
This morning I was eating my cereal while playing a game on my phone. I usually play on my phone as a distraction so I am not focusing on eating, because that usually results in instant throwing up. So anyway I was eating and playing when all of a sudden my phone fell into my cereal!! It was not completely submersed in milk, but pretty close. I immediately scooped it up, took the case off, and dried it with a towel. I turned it off and on and everything seemed ok. I brought it to Luke and he said the sound wasn't working on it. Awesome.....so I took it with me to school hoping it would just dry out and be fine, but when I went to call Luke in the afternoon it was not allowing me to hear him. If I put the call on speaker phone then we can hear each other, but that is it. So my phone was clearly busted :(........ I started to see what I could do about my phone without paying a bagillion dollars fixing it (and we are going to try to sell them).... I did find something that said to blow the phone out with canned air; As soon as I got home I did just that! After I turned it back on I tested it to see if it worked and no such luck! Bummer...... I started to get desperate and was really upset about the phone when I prayed over my phone and as soon as I turned it back on everything worked!!!!! YAY!!! Thank you God for phones that work :)
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Days 8 and 9
Monday: I am thankful for energy. Being pregnant has been quite an adventure! I was pretty sick the first trimester and most of the second. Just this past weekend I have felt like my old self. I have more energy and therefore being nicer to everyone :)
Tuesday: Today I am thankful for scripture. This morning Luke and I were talking while eating breakfast and he was sharing some scripture with me that has been on his heart. I was thinking about that all morning, and when I got to school this morning we had our staff devotions. Our headmaster led the devotions and spoke from Psalm 127, and also brought up the same scripture that Luke was talking about this morning. It was so encouraging and I just know that the Lord is watching over us and will take care of us and this precious baby! Praise the Lord from whom all blessings flow!
Tuesday: Today I am thankful for scripture. This morning Luke and I were talking while eating breakfast and he was sharing some scripture with me that has been on his heart. I was thinking about that all morning, and when I got to school this morning we had our staff devotions. Our headmaster led the devotions and spoke from Psalm 127, and also brought up the same scripture that Luke was talking about this morning. It was so encouraging and I just know that the Lord is watching over us and will take care of us and this precious baby! Praise the Lord from whom all blessings flow!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Day 5,6,and 7
This weekend I am VERY thankful for rest! But because I did not post yesterday I will give you my thankfulness in order to cover this weekend, as I intend to spend less time on the computer and more time resting.
Friday: I am super thankful for all the cancer survivors, especially my mom. Yesterday our school was a "pit stop" for the 60 day Susan Komen race for the cure. Our students created signs and each took turns standing outside and cheering for the wonderful people who were running to raise money for a cure for breast cancer. It warmed my heart to see so many running, to see my students encouraging them, and also to have a special mom standing with me who fought that fight just last year. This special lady came to pick up her children last year from the after school program I use to be in charge of and she was in tears. She had just came from her doctor's appointment where she found out she had breast cancer. Her husband was away on a business trip and I was the first person she saw since the appointment. She was hear broken; I was heart broken. We hugged and talked, but soon she left with her children and returned home to wait for her husband who left that morning to return because of the news. Yesterday she stood beside me, beautiful, energetic, and ready to live! How awesome is that?
Then of course there is my mom. She noticed a lump, had a doctor confirm her fears, and she told me. At first I didn't know what to think! It was crazy to take that kind of information in about your mother. Luke and I flew to North Carolina to be with her during her surgery. The doctor told us she was in the early stages and it looked good for her. That was good news, but there was a long road ahead of my mom for recovery. I spent the night with her changing her pump, giving her medicine, and grasping a little bit of what she was going through. Then I had to go back to TX, but stayed informed in what she was doing and going through! I do not know first hand what you go through when you have breast cancer, but seeing the moms at school and my own mother go through it, I can say that it is a long hard road and for most the outcome is not life. I praise the Lord for those survivors, their courage, and strength!
Saturday: Today I am thankful for rest! Last weekend Luke and I went to a Cross World conference for missionaries. It was awesome, gave a lot of direction, and exhausting! We drove back and forth from Dallas to Ft.Worth. We did not get home until midnight the first night, up at 6 the next morning to be on time, drove home midday to do the dogs, back to Ft.Worth and home by 11pm. Up early Sunday and did get home about 3 that afternoon. Monday Luke had a night class after working all day and got home about 10. Tuesday after both of us working we had small group, Thursday Luke got home from work at 8:30pm (he left the house at 7am), and by the time yesterday came we were DONE! So I am thankful for rest today.
Sunday: I am thankful for a say dedicated to the Lord and rest! I am thankful for a job where I have the weekends off :) Praise the Lord for the Sabbath!
Hope you all enjoy your weekend :)
Friday: I am super thankful for all the cancer survivors, especially my mom. Yesterday our school was a "pit stop" for the 60 day Susan Komen race for the cure. Our students created signs and each took turns standing outside and cheering for the wonderful people who were running to raise money for a cure for breast cancer. It warmed my heart to see so many running, to see my students encouraging them, and also to have a special mom standing with me who fought that fight just last year. This special lady came to pick up her children last year from the after school program I use to be in charge of and she was in tears. She had just came from her doctor's appointment where she found out she had breast cancer. Her husband was away on a business trip and I was the first person she saw since the appointment. She was hear broken; I was heart broken. We hugged and talked, but soon she left with her children and returned home to wait for her husband who left that morning to return because of the news. Yesterday she stood beside me, beautiful, energetic, and ready to live! How awesome is that?
Then of course there is my mom. She noticed a lump, had a doctor confirm her fears, and she told me. At first I didn't know what to think! It was crazy to take that kind of information in about your mother. Luke and I flew to North Carolina to be with her during her surgery. The doctor told us she was in the early stages and it looked good for her. That was good news, but there was a long road ahead of my mom for recovery. I spent the night with her changing her pump, giving her medicine, and grasping a little bit of what she was going through. Then I had to go back to TX, but stayed informed in what she was doing and going through! I do not know first hand what you go through when you have breast cancer, but seeing the moms at school and my own mother go through it, I can say that it is a long hard road and for most the outcome is not life. I praise the Lord for those survivors, their courage, and strength!
Saturday: Today I am thankful for rest! Last weekend Luke and I went to a Cross World conference for missionaries. It was awesome, gave a lot of direction, and exhausting! We drove back and forth from Dallas to Ft.Worth. We did not get home until midnight the first night, up at 6 the next morning to be on time, drove home midday to do the dogs, back to Ft.Worth and home by 11pm. Up early Sunday and did get home about 3 that afternoon. Monday Luke had a night class after working all day and got home about 10. Tuesday after both of us working we had small group, Thursday Luke got home from work at 8:30pm (he left the house at 7am), and by the time yesterday came we were DONE! So I am thankful for rest today.
Sunday: I am thankful for a say dedicated to the Lord and rest! I am thankful for a job where I have the weekends off :) Praise the Lord for the Sabbath!
Hope you all enjoy your weekend :)
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Day 4
Everyday is a blessing from God, whether it is you being able to spend another day on earth, or something awesome happens, or He provides in miraculous ways. That last one is what I am thankful for today.
The other first grade teacher in my school has been teaching for like 30+ years, and has been at my school for 27 years! She is AMAZING; not one of those teachers that should have retired 10 years ago. There is a gentle spirit among her that just brightens your day no matter what. I have the honor of spending Tuesday afternoons with her to go over lesson plans and upcoming events. We also talk about life and share stories. She has often told me that God works in her life up to the 11:59 clock. Meaning that God provides no matter what, it may seem that it doesn't happen until the very last possible second, but He ALWAYS provides.
The last 6 months (since our first miscarriage) it has seem like Luke and I are barley able to keep our heads above the water. From hospital bills, to life events happening, to starting another school year, and now a baby on the way (which brings new bills). This past week we were faced with yet another unexpected event that we were not too sure what we were going to do about it, but knew that God was going to help us and we can lean on Him to guide us. The event caused for action to take place within this week or it would be good. I was worried, but something inside me knew everything was going to be ok. We discovered this news Monday evening at around 5:00. By 9:00 the next morning the situation resolved itself which there was really no way for that to happen since it seemed to be that phone calls and lots of pleading needed to happen in order to make this ok. God totally stepped in and took care of everything!
I feel guilty not reflecting more often on the amazing things God does for me, but today was one of those days where I just say His hand in everything. It melts my heart to know that I am consumed by His unfailing love. What a blessing beyond words!
The other first grade teacher in my school has been teaching for like 30+ years, and has been at my school for 27 years! She is AMAZING; not one of those teachers that should have retired 10 years ago. There is a gentle spirit among her that just brightens your day no matter what. I have the honor of spending Tuesday afternoons with her to go over lesson plans and upcoming events. We also talk about life and share stories. She has often told me that God works in her life up to the 11:59 clock. Meaning that God provides no matter what, it may seem that it doesn't happen until the very last possible second, but He ALWAYS provides.
The last 6 months (since our first miscarriage) it has seem like Luke and I are barley able to keep our heads above the water. From hospital bills, to life events happening, to starting another school year, and now a baby on the way (which brings new bills). This past week we were faced with yet another unexpected event that we were not too sure what we were going to do about it, but knew that God was going to help us and we can lean on Him to guide us. The event caused for action to take place within this week or it would be good. I was worried, but something inside me knew everything was going to be ok. We discovered this news Monday evening at around 5:00. By 9:00 the next morning the situation resolved itself which there was really no way for that to happen since it seemed to be that phone calls and lots of pleading needed to happen in order to make this ok. God totally stepped in and took care of everything!
I feel guilty not reflecting more often on the amazing things God does for me, but today was one of those days where I just say His hand in everything. It melts my heart to know that I am consumed by His unfailing love. What a blessing beyond words!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Day 3
Today I am super thankful for friends! Last night we met with our small group, and they rock. I love hanging out with them and each time we meet it seems that we get closer and closer more like family :) At school I have the most wonderful coworkers who pour themselves on me all the time, but even more now that I am pregnant. I love listening to their stories from when they were pregnant and all their advice. Then there is my bestest bud at work Tiffany! She is just amazing and I truly treasure her!
So day 3, I am super thankful for friends :)
So day 3, I am super thankful for friends :)
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Day 2
Today I am thankful for my students. They are constantly making me laugh! Today while picking them up from music class it decided to down pour outside. We have to walk just a couple feet outside (under covering) to get into the school building. My students were already talkative because it was freezing in Dallas today, never-mind the pouring rain. Once I got them in line and ready to go inside there was the loudest thunder and the sharpest crack of lighting I have ever hear or seen....and apparently for my students too. They FREAKED! It was so funny; the girls scream and cover their ears, the boys are running up to each other and giving high fives, and then there is me trying to get my class under control so we can enter the building in a somewhat calm fashion. Yeah...that didn't happen! I quickly bounced into action on plan B... Just get the kiddos inside. This was working out great until they were just as crazy as outside and the church was in the middle of the ladies Bible Study. Thankfully the ladies were laughing at my students reactions, and were quickly able to gather ourselves together and make it back to class without another word.
Yes, I am thankful for fun filled moments like this. My class is awesome and we have so much fun. Thank the Lord for a job that I absolutely love, and would not trade for anything!
Yes, I am thankful for fun filled moments like this. My class is awesome and we have so much fun. Thank the Lord for a job that I absolutely love, and would not trade for anything!
Monday, November 1, 2010
30 Days of being thankful
This month in my classroom we focus each day thinking about something we are thankful for, and each week we write it down and hang it up in the classroom. This got me thinking about what I am truly thankful for. There are so many things to be thankful for and today my mind has been focused on the baby in my belly.
Yesterday I felt the baby move for the first time and I think I have felt it today. There are no words that can describe this feeling and after losing our first one, it makes this moment of thankfulness more then just being "thankful". It's know who is creating this little on inside me and how I have no control over any of it! That is something to be truly thankful for, and I truly am!
Yesterday I felt the baby move for the first time and I think I have felt it today. There are no words that can describe this feeling and after losing our first one, it makes this moment of thankfulness more then just being "thankful". It's know who is creating this little on inside me and how I have no control over any of it! That is something to be truly thankful for, and I truly am!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Stretching!
4 MONTHS!!! I cannot believe that I am 4 months pregnant!! I am SUPER excited and cannot believe that I am actually pregnant! My belly is actually starting to form into a little bump. At first I was in denial about it and thinking that it was just because I just ate and was bloated, but people have been telling me that it is indeed a baby bump. This morning I woke up feeling stretched! The top of my stomach was super tight and I thought it was just because I had to go to the bathroom. It has been like that all day and believe me I have been to the bathroom more times then I can count. It is my belly getting ready to house the super fast growing baby inside me! Luke and I are so excited :)
Friday, October 15, 2010
First appointment
For those who don't know, Luke and I are expecting again!!! You can find all the information and details at our baby website: www.LukeandBeccaandBabyP.ourbabychannel.com.
Luke and I had our first doctor's appointment last month. We waited until we were 10 weeks to go in just to get over the hump of where we were when we lost our first one. Going into the office where it all began was a little weird, but God totally comforted us. I was doing fine until I was laying on the bed and the TV turned on where Luke and I could see our baby for the first time. I was starting to get teary eyed and nervous thinking about what I was going to do if this one was not going to be ok. While I was thinking this Luke was squeezing my hand and all of a sudden a baby image appeared on the screen! The baby was moving and looking like an actual baby! I couldn't believe it! We could see the head, arms, legs, heart, and actually see the baby moving!! We were just in awe and so full of love already. On our first doctor's appoint with our first pregnancy all we say was a blob with the heart fluttering. It was precious, and I think we were both expecting the same image, but when that baby appeared on the screen we were both shocked! It was totally cool :)
Luke and I had our first doctor's appointment last month. We waited until we were 10 weeks to go in just to get over the hump of where we were when we lost our first one. Going into the office where it all began was a little weird, but God totally comforted us. I was doing fine until I was laying on the bed and the TV turned on where Luke and I could see our baby for the first time. I was starting to get teary eyed and nervous thinking about what I was going to do if this one was not going to be ok. While I was thinking this Luke was squeezing my hand and all of a sudden a baby image appeared on the screen! The baby was moving and looking like an actual baby! I couldn't believe it! We could see the head, arms, legs, heart, and actually see the baby moving!! We were just in awe and so full of love already. On our first doctor's appoint with our first pregnancy all we say was a blob with the heart fluttering. It was precious, and I think we were both expecting the same image, but when that baby appeared on the screen we were both shocked! It was totally cool :)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Project 365 (7 photos), by Becca Perkins
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Bad Mom
I went to a friends house for some girl time and got home pretty late. Luke has been working on homework all day and trying to finish everything up since the semester ends in two days. He is awesome :) Anyway, I got home and the dogs needed to go out ASAP, like they were going to explode. I got their leashes on and headed down the stairs when I noticed this long fuzzy black thing squirming across the ground at the bottom of the stairs. Riley was fixed on in! She was ready to pounce! Champ suddenly noticed it and really wanted it in his mouth (he just holds things in his mouth). Both dogs are tugging and I am trying to hold them back while this thing squirms under the stairs. Once he was under them I ran with the dogs to the grass. There was a lady in the parking lot smoking and she probably thought I was crazy, but Luke was gone and I was not about to try to get this gross bug out of my dogs mouth.
Anyway, the dogs went to the bathroom really quick and we were on our way back to the stairs! Luckily that thing was no where to be seen, that is until we got to the top of the stairs when Riley found it again. She tried to go back down the stairs, but she did not get too far! I dragged her into the house, and she has spent the last 30 minutes or so at the door making funny noises hoping that I will let her play with the bug.....nope I am not! Does that make me a bad mom?!??! :)
Anyway, the dogs went to the bathroom really quick and we were on our way back to the stairs! Luckily that thing was no where to be seen, that is until we got to the top of the stairs when Riley found it again. She tried to go back down the stairs, but she did not get too far! I dragged her into the house, and she has spent the last 30 minutes or so at the door making funny noises hoping that I will let her play with the bug.....nope I am not! Does that make me a bad mom?!??! :)
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Baby
Nope, no baby YET! I know we will be pregnant soon though :) My friend Kim had some coworkers that were getting rid of their baby stuff and was looking for a good home for it.... I was definitely up for giving the baby furniture a good home! So Kim met me at 8:45 and we hiked up to Plano to get the great stuff! We got a beautiful glider rocker, changing table, crib mattress (never used), and some other fun things. Now I cannot wait to be pregnant and have a baby to use this stuff! Thanks Kim for being amazing and sooooo helpful! I seriously think you should have another one so we can be pregnant together :)
I went to starbucks this afternoon for a delicious iced coffee (decaf in case I am pregnant), when I saw a dad with two little twin girls maybe two years old! It melted my heat! They were dressed alike and just the cutest girls ever :) I could totally have twins...hhhmmm..... :)
I went to starbucks this afternoon for a delicious iced coffee (decaf in case I am pregnant), when I saw a dad with two little twin girls maybe two years old! It melted my heat! They were dressed alike and just the cutest girls ever :) I could totally have twins...hhhmmm..... :)
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Bugs
I HATE BUGS!!!! If I knew the amount of bugs I would encounter in Texas before we moved here, I would have seriously reconsider!! Our first apartment was COVERED with cockroaches, I hated those guys before I even saw them in Texas, and let me tell you how much I despise those critters!! I cannot even kill them, I scream and jump when I see them, and would be much happier if they were never created....I really hate bugs!
Yesterday I was meeting my friend in a McDonald's parking lot to pick something up from her. We stood in the parking lot talking for a little but when I felt an itch on my leg. I was wearing linen bell bottom pants which are super comfy and so fun to wear! When I itched my leg I thought I felt something weird on my leg, but ignored it. A little bit later we are still talking and I feel something on my knee......I went to itch it and felt a bump inside my pants!!! I didn't freak out, just swatted my leg and figured whatever it was would fall out of my pants. So I hugged and said good bye to my friend and walked to my car.....I felt something on my right hip bone!!!! I instantly panicked!!! I grabbed my pant where the bug was and sat in my car trying to breathe and figure out what I was going to do. I could call Luke and have him come down and help me get this thing out of my pants, or I could just kill it (again) and it would fall out of my pants. As I was thinking about Luke laughing at me and refusing to save me from the bug, I decided I would see if I could kill it first, but...then I started thinking about what kind of bug it was.... what if it was a beetle.... then it's spiky legs would stick in me! What if it was a wasp, or bee...then it would sting me! What if it was a cockroach!!!! AAAHHHH, I could not handle watching a cockroach roll out of my pants. That was it! I was less then 5 minutes from home and surely I could handle driving home where Luke could help me. So I reached into my pocket and grabbed my hair elastic. I tied off the part of my pants that had the bug trapped in it. So now the bug is not touching me and it has it's own little pocket to stay until I could get help!
I started driving home and about half way there I heard the bug in my pants making noise! I could not pin point what the sounds was, but I stated to freak out even more! I turned the radio up louder and drove faster! When I got home, I ran into the house asked Luke to help me! I took my pants off as fast as I could, gave them to Luke and told him not to tell me what kind of bug it as or how big! I just wanted him to get rid of it! I heard Luke take the hair elastic off, open the front door and come back into the bedroom. I had to know...I didn't want to know....arg..... So I asked him " don't tell me if it was a cockroach, but was it big"? He said it was....then I asked him what it was..... turns out is was a big cricket! AAHHHHHHH!!!!! I had a cricket in my pants!!!
Yesterday I was meeting my friend in a McDonald's parking lot to pick something up from her. We stood in the parking lot talking for a little but when I felt an itch on my leg. I was wearing linen bell bottom pants which are super comfy and so fun to wear! When I itched my leg I thought I felt something weird on my leg, but ignored it. A little bit later we are still talking and I feel something on my knee......I went to itch it and felt a bump inside my pants!!! I didn't freak out, just swatted my leg and figured whatever it was would fall out of my pants. So I hugged and said good bye to my friend and walked to my car.....I felt something on my right hip bone!!!! I instantly panicked!!! I grabbed my pant where the bug was and sat in my car trying to breathe and figure out what I was going to do. I could call Luke and have him come down and help me get this thing out of my pants, or I could just kill it (again) and it would fall out of my pants. As I was thinking about Luke laughing at me and refusing to save me from the bug, I decided I would see if I could kill it first, but...then I started thinking about what kind of bug it was.... what if it was a beetle.... then it's spiky legs would stick in me! What if it was a wasp, or bee...then it would sting me! What if it was a cockroach!!!! AAAHHHH, I could not handle watching a cockroach roll out of my pants. That was it! I was less then 5 minutes from home and surely I could handle driving home where Luke could help me. So I reached into my pocket and grabbed my hair elastic. I tied off the part of my pants that had the bug trapped in it. So now the bug is not touching me and it has it's own little pocket to stay until I could get help!
I started driving home and about half way there I heard the bug in my pants making noise! I could not pin point what the sounds was, but I stated to freak out even more! I turned the radio up louder and drove faster! When I got home, I ran into the house asked Luke to help me! I took my pants off as fast as I could, gave them to Luke and told him not to tell me what kind of bug it as or how big! I just wanted him to get rid of it! I heard Luke take the hair elastic off, open the front door and come back into the bedroom. I had to know...I didn't want to know....arg..... So I asked him " don't tell me if it was a cockroach, but was it big"? He said it was....then I asked him what it was..... turns out is was a big cricket! AAHHHHHHH!!!!! I had a cricket in my pants!!!
I HATE BUGS!!!!!!!!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Fairy Tale Moments
Ok, I am a super geek I know, but this is what has been on my mind! Fairy Tales...... Maybe I am the only girl who does this, but ya know when you are watching a chick flick or you see a commercial with a guy and a girl and they are expressing their love, or saying sorry, or just caught up in embracing each other and there is sweet background music, and it makes you feel gushy inside or maybe tear up?!?!?! Ok, like I said maybe I am the only one. I used to find those moments in my life. I use to find those moments with God....where did they go?
I remember times during worship in church and I would get caught up in a song, with my eyes closed it seemed like I was the only one in the sanctuary singing to my God who is reaching directly into my heart, holding me and telling me the love He has for me........ Making me feel like I was having a fairy tale moment with the creator Himself! I miss that. How did I get so far away? Life is hard, but doing life without God is impossible!
I thought things were getting better, like I could finally come up for air, but little did I know that there was yet another storm when I came up. This one is bills.....Praise the Lord for an amazing job (that I would not trade for anything), and a summer baby sitting job that isn't really like baby sitting, more like hanging out and investing in little siblings in a niece or nephew :)..they are that great! We were hoping to really save a ton and had plans for this extra money, but oh no...you know where it is all going?!?!??! Miscarriage bills....awesome....... yup.....paying for something that I did not ask for, or want, something that would be totally different (or my attitude would be at least) if I actually got something out of this, not just heart ache and frustration! Grrr....
Like I said Praise the Lord that we can pay the bills and are fine...I need to change my attitude on that for sure! In the midst of all this life stuff, it would be nice to have a few fairy tale moments in there..... for real ones, not just ones you see on TV.
I remember times during worship in church and I would get caught up in a song, with my eyes closed it seemed like I was the only one in the sanctuary singing to my God who is reaching directly into my heart, holding me and telling me the love He has for me........ Making me feel like I was having a fairy tale moment with the creator Himself! I miss that. How did I get so far away? Life is hard, but doing life without God is impossible!
I thought things were getting better, like I could finally come up for air, but little did I know that there was yet another storm when I came up. This one is bills.....Praise the Lord for an amazing job (that I would not trade for anything), and a summer baby sitting job that isn't really like baby sitting, more like hanging out and investing in little siblings in a niece or nephew :)..they are that great! We were hoping to really save a ton and had plans for this extra money, but oh no...you know where it is all going?!?!??! Miscarriage bills....awesome....... yup.....paying for something that I did not ask for, or want, something that would be totally different (or my attitude would be at least) if I actually got something out of this, not just heart ache and frustration! Grrr....
BUT.......
Like I said Praise the Lord that we can pay the bills and are fine...I need to change my attitude on that for sure! In the midst of all this life stuff, it would be nice to have a few fairy tale moments in there..... for real ones, not just ones you see on TV.
(For the record, I am not a fan of Miley Cyrus at all, but I can relate to this song and like the lyrics)
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Ants
Last summer my balcony had three flower boxes, and a beautiful hanging plant! We went to Haiti and came to back to a very sad looking balcony with lots of brown dead plants :( This summer we are here and I decided to replant all my beautiful flowers! They are so pretty! Lots of purple! I have noticed a lot f red ants around, but didnot think anything of it, except that it is summer, and that brings all kinds of unwanted bugs!
This morning I went to water my beautiful flowers when Luke noticed a bunch of red ants running for their lives out of one of my flower boxes....I then went to get more water to dump in the box, and when I did that goodness....there were tons of ants coming out of every hole! They were every where! Then they were coming out holding their eggs, food, and finally the queen came out! Luke killed her! I couldn't believe it...it was really gross....so now I need to figure out how to keep ants from making their home in my flowers!!!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Round Two
Dear Round Two,
Please go faster and a lot better then Round one. Thanks a bunch and I am looking forward to our adventure!
Love, Becca
*disclaimer: I am NOT pregnant....(yet)....*
Monday, June 28, 2010
A minor breakdown :)
August: Dad's heart attack
December: Donna's accident
December: Grammie has cancer and dementia
January: Mother's cancer
January: Haiti earthquake
February-March: Luke in Haiti
February: family dog dies
April-May: Pregnant and the miscarry
June: More family illness
June: More family issues
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Thursday, June 24, 2010
Summer
Wow...it is summer already! I am sitting here trying to figure out how summer got here so fast, and how it is already the end of another week. This is our first summer in Texas. We have lived here for about three years, but we have spent our summers in Haiti. With Luke spending two months in Haiti after the earthquake, he needed to take summer classes. We had mixed feelings about this... we were happy because it gives us a chance to spend the summer in one place in our home, but also sad because we love Haiti and that is like another home.
So what are we going to do with our summer? I am baby sitting and Luke is working hard. In August we are going to NH to go on vacation!!!!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED!!!!! We are going to Cape Cod, laying on the beach, and not going ANYTHING!!!!!! I cannot wait :) It is going to be awesome :)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Always Something
I am not sure why this is just becoming a reality, or maybe I am just defeated, but there is always, I mean ALWAYS something that needs to be done! I love completing things, checking off my "to do" list and at the end of the day knowing all that has been accomplished. I LOVE sitting back on the couch looking at my house and know that every bit of it is clean. I am almost there today...just waiting for the laundry machines to catch up to me.
As I sit here just waiting and playing with the kiddos I realized that there are other things that need to be done....then it hit me...there is ALWAYS going to be something that needs to be done. Having two kiddos around all the time gave me the sense of what motherhood will be like: You need to choose playing, or dusting, coloring or washing the floor...lots of thing will not get done, but then again will everything ever be done, completely?!?!!? Nope!
Luke just called me and he is in the US of A :) YAY!!! He is almost home!!! I cannot wait to see him! I know that he was only gone a week, but it wasn't that long ago that he was gone for 2 MONTHS!!! so I am ready for him to be home for a while. I am looking forward to celebrating my birthday with him, and then our anniversary, and then VACATION TO THE CAPE WITH THE FAMILY!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! And Lord willing there will be another pregnancy in there :). God is in control!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
POP!!!!!!
I am a "doer" I thrive on helping people, and doing stuff. I LOVE to help and do anything...this also drives my husband nuts :). He asks me quite frequently to chill, or cancel something, or say NO (I have the hardest time saying no). I love children so much! Luke and I will someday have our own! I love, love, LOVE teaching, and LOVE baby sitting (my summer job). I am so blessed to have the family that I am baby sitting for! They trust me, the kiddos are awesome and I can take them anywhere....the little girl loves to clean, and oh my do they make Champ and Riley tired! I love it!
I am not one to admit when I need a break, but I don't think I have ever needed a vacation. I am in need of one now, let me tell you! I don't know if it is to run away from everything, or just chill, but either way I am for it! Luke and I have been faced with so much the past year, and things just seem to continue getting complicated! We are stronger then ever in the Lord and following Him with all we have. We are SUPER excited for what He has in store for us, and cannot wait to get started.
There you go, those are my random crazy, not making much sense thoughts :)
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Dogs
This morning Riley woke up about 6:00am, jumped off the bed and woke Champ up. Then they both came into bed with me for a little while...I think it was around 6:30 they started their chasing game. Then they bounced on the bed licking me and wrestling each other until I got up to take them out to go potty. Once inside they both sit in the kitchen waiting for me to get their dishes, then proceed to follow me to the laundry room (where we keep their food), and watch me scoop out their food. Once I come out of the laundry room they race (usually Champ just lays outside the kitchen until you rub his belly and tell him to go eat breakfast) to the kitchen and eat. Riley is always done first and waits..inching forward....trying to see if today will be the day Champ shares his breakfast with her.....Champ notices Riley inch
ing forward....he lets out a deep small growl! Riley immediately sits back, and tries it again. Champ then looks at her and growls....Riley leaves until she can no longer hear Champ eating, races back to the kitchen, and licks the left overs.
They are now pottied, fed, and napping....yup, dogs are so much like children...I love them :)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Give-a-way
Posting this for an extra chance on winning, since we are preparing for round 2 :) YAY!!!!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Success
Well I got the results this week that I have successfully completed my miscarriage.....ggggrrreeeaaattt (insert eye roll here). I am happy though that everything is back to normal as far as my body goes and soon we can go for round two! Hopefully this round will end a bit better :). It's all in God's hands!
Another school year has come to a close, and summer had officially started! It is off to a great start. Baby sitting is going great, and I am have too much fun with my kiddos. I start baby sitting the other group this week, and that will put me at four kiddos. I am not baby sitting all four every day, so I will have some sanity left at the end of the week :). I cannot complain at all, I am blessed to have a job, and also to absolutely LOVE the families I am working for! God provides and gives me joy all the time!
So with that said, I am going to enjoy the rest of my peaceful evening until I dive into another week :)
Another school year has come to a close, and summer had officially started! It is off to a great start. Baby sitting is going great, and I am have too much fun with my kiddos. I start baby sitting the other group this week, and that will put me at four kiddos. I am not baby sitting all four every day, so I will have some sanity left at the end of the week :). I cannot complain at all, I am blessed to have a job, and also to absolutely LOVE the families I am working for! God provides and gives me joy all the time!
So with that said, I am going to enjoy the rest of my peaceful evening until I dive into another week :)
Monday, May 31, 2010
Spa Day
My amazing first grade class gave me a gift certificate to a spa as an end of the year gift! They rock, and might I add that this is the second one that they gave me?!?! Yup...I am spoiled :). I cashed in my spa day yesterday at a spa here in Dallas...it was AMAZING!!! They have a "waterhouse" that has a steam cave, whirlpool, and relaxing sitting area. I enjoyed a drink and the whirlpool before my massage! It was just me, my drink and the whirlpool.... the other people were in the sitting area. It was so nice to just with myself. I have not done that since the week I was miscarriaging and that was not a good time! I sat in the whirlpool chilling and really feeling close to God. We chatted and relaxed and before I knew it, I was being called back for my massage. The 80 minutes of massage was incredible and just got better and better!
There was one point in the massage that really hit my heart. The day that Luke and I found out we were pregnant I was getting a spa pedicure (Which I won from school) with Jenna and the lady put hot towels around my legs and feet. I remember thinking that if I was pregnant this might be too hot, but I did not know for sure until that night :). So when the lady did the same thing yesterday I had the same thought, but then quickly remember that no, I was not. It was not a heart sinking feeling like it has been. It was a cleansing feeling between me and God. I know and feel His presence and I know it is going to be ok.
Yesterday I was pampered and spent the whole day laughing and flirting with my husband :) It was awesome and I loved yesterday :)
There was one point in the massage that really hit my heart. The day that Luke and I found out we were pregnant I was getting a spa pedicure (Which I won from school) with Jenna and the lady put hot towels around my legs and feet. I remember thinking that if I was pregnant this might be too hot, but I did not know for sure until that night :). So when the lady did the same thing yesterday I had the same thought, but then quickly remember that no, I was not. It was not a heart sinking feeling like it has been. It was a cleansing feeling between me and God. I know and feel His presence and I know it is going to be ok.
Yesterday I was pampered and spent the whole day laughing and flirting with my husband :) It was awesome and I loved yesterday :)
Thursday, May 27, 2010
summer
Today is the last full day of school and the LAST day of Grace Camp FOREVER!!! Next year I will not have to come to school at 6:30am and stay until 6:15-6:30! I will be able to leave at 3:30 if I wanted to. I am not sure what I think about that. I am a "doer", I love to help and serve and relaxing and taking time for myself is not one of my sweet skills. Now don't get me wrong, sometimes I am too good at practicing those relaxing skills when I want to, but to have nothing to do...I think I am going to go crazy!
This summer I will be baby sitting for two families and loving on some awesome kiddos. It is going to be so nice to chill out and do things at my pace. My goals this summer is to make lots of money (ya right), make a baby (Lord willing), read lots of books, and CHILL OUT!!! So there you have it....we will see how this goes.
As far as life goes, things are back to normal (I think), We have a doctor's appointment next Tuesday and I am thinking things will be fine. Luke is going strong through his first summer class and only had like a bagillion more to do! We are still praying and following the Lord's guidance on Haiti.
This summer I will be baby sitting for two families and loving on some awesome kiddos. It is going to be so nice to chill out and do things at my pace. My goals this summer is to make lots of money (ya right), make a baby (Lord willing), read lots of books, and CHILL OUT!!! So there you have it....we will see how this goes.
As far as life goes, things are back to normal (I think), We have a doctor's appointment next Tuesday and I am thinking things will be fine. Luke is going strong through his first summer class and only had like a bagillion more to do! We are still praying and following the Lord's guidance on Haiti.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
productivity
I have had my eye open for an armoir for our living room for some time now. These guys are VERY expensive and I just couldn't bring myself to pay full price for one. So I have been stalking Craig's list, ebay, and Luke's closet just waiting for one! No luck! Two days ago out of the blue Luke was walking in the student center at his school and noticed someone was selling one for $40!!!!!!!!!! These guys can go for $400.00!!! So we got it :) It looks awesome in our living room! Yesterday Luke picked it up, got it in the car, and lugged it (with help from our apartment guy, he helped Luke on the last step), and got it in our living room all by himself. Then he went back to school. He picked me up from school at 6, we raced home, changed and rode 4 miles on our awesome bicycles, then came home cleaned, and perfected the living room, I did laundry (which is done and I have no clothes to wash)! We were SUPER productive last night! I got to school this morning (late for me) at 7:15, and oh, did I mention that I do not have any grading to do because I did all of that yesterday!?!?!? Yup, I think I am getting back to normal! Thank you hormones for FINALLY getting back to where you are suppose to be!
Monday, May 17, 2010
Doctors
Luke and I went to the doctor's (AGAIN) today and things are still going well. The tech chick seemed impressed that I haven't had any medication for this. I don't like taking that kind of stuff if I don't have too, and I really like being in touch with my body. So this has been some of the worst physical and emotional pain I have ever been in, but all I have taken is advil (and that I only took twice).
So healing and physical pain is going down, while it seems my emotions are going through the roof! I thought as hormones go down so don't the flair ups of emotions! I think I have been more emotional this weekend and today then I have been throughout the pregnancy and miscarriage! Crazy! Someone today asked me how I was doing, and sometimes I put my super cape on and say that I am doing great (which sometimes I feel strong and like I am doing ok), but this time I said "ok, getting there". Then the person asked how my heart was.....I almost bursted into tears right then and there! My heart....I think I have kinda locked that away while I was trying to deal with the physical pain and now it is bursting through those doors and consuming me! I wish it would just go back to being locked up! I feel much stronger when it is, and more in control with myself! Reality is I can't and so here I am a big ball of mush!
So healing and physical pain is going down, while it seems my emotions are going through the roof! I thought as hormones go down so don't the flair ups of emotions! I think I have been more emotional this weekend and today then I have been throughout the pregnancy and miscarriage! Crazy! Someone today asked me how I was doing, and sometimes I put my super cape on and say that I am doing great (which sometimes I feel strong and like I am doing ok), but this time I said "ok, getting there". Then the person asked how my heart was.....I almost bursted into tears right then and there! My heart....I think I have kinda locked that away while I was trying to deal with the physical pain and now it is bursting through those doors and consuming me! I wish it would just go back to being locked up! I feel much stronger when it is, and more in control with myself! Reality is I can't and so here I am a big ball of mush!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Sad day
One week from today I lost our precious baby....I thought I was doing ok emotionally, but these darn hormones are working their way down and out and have me going crazy! I am fine one second and then the next I am the biggest baby ever. Goodness! On the up side I am feeling 100 times better and looking forward to our appointment on Monday to know for sure how my body is doing.
Tonight Luke and I are getting all dressed up and going to a big black tie event in a very fancy hotel to celebrate Haiti's flag day with a bunch of Haitians!! We are SUPER excited!
Tonight Luke and I are getting all dressed up and going to a big black tie event in a very fancy hotel to celebrate Haiti's flag day with a bunch of Haitians!! We are SUPER excited!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Ouch
Monday I came home from work early, and in a lot of pain. Tuesday I came home early from works and in even more pain! Wednesday I just didn't go into work, and guess what?!? A LOT of pain. Here we are...Thursday I am ye again bound to the couch with my legs up not in as much pain as early this week, but still have some. Resting and being still helps tremendously...but I just don't want to sit around all day. I am feeling a lot better and my plan is to either go to work tomorrow or cut my insides out because I am done playing this game.
I was laying in the clinic f our school Tuesday morning because I could not stand up straight! With some amazing godly women around me trying to convince me that I was going home and that I needed to take the next day off! In my head I know i needed to rest, but in my heart I wanted everything to be normal. I knew that I was going to be an emotional roller coaster and I could control that, but the pain and what my body is going through I did not expect! I figured the trauma of being in the ER Saturday and all that passing the baby would be it and I could go back to normal... NO ONE told me about what happens next. The doctor just gave me a prescription for Vicodine and told me I would need that! At first I looked at Luke and just wondered why they would prescribe such a strong medication for something that already took place, but I found out why later! I went to my OB Monday and they said my body was cleaning itself out, but no one said how or how much pain that would entail. Then they called to check on me Tuesday, I told them how much pain I was in and their response was "oh yeah, that is normal. Take the vicodine and try to lay down as much as you can". Thanks for the help!
I decided then to listen to my body, because God created it to handle these kinds of things. I have been laying down, still, and board out of my mind! It has been good because I can feel it helping. I have not taken the vicodine and my body must be doing a great job at cleaning because I have NEVER been in this much pain before! It is ok, each time I hurt I have been making up a song and that helps, maybe someday I will share that funny song with you...not right now because I am still adding to it :)
I miss my students and cannot wait to get back to normal. All you who have shared stories, hugs, comments here and on facebook, sent flowers....you guys rock! They have all helped so much and thank you! I have the best husband in the world! I have royally messed up his school schedule and yesterday he stayed home with me. I told him to go to school because he cannot help me heal, and he said no he can't, but he can help my heart! He is awesome and I do not deserve him!
I was laying in the clinic f our school Tuesday morning because I could not stand up straight! With some amazing godly women around me trying to convince me that I was going home and that I needed to take the next day off! In my head I know i needed to rest, but in my heart I wanted everything to be normal. I knew that I was going to be an emotional roller coaster and I could control that, but the pain and what my body is going through I did not expect! I figured the trauma of being in the ER Saturday and all that passing the baby would be it and I could go back to normal... NO ONE told me about what happens next. The doctor just gave me a prescription for Vicodine and told me I would need that! At first I looked at Luke and just wondered why they would prescribe such a strong medication for something that already took place, but I found out why later! I went to my OB Monday and they said my body was cleaning itself out, but no one said how or how much pain that would entail. Then they called to check on me Tuesday, I told them how much pain I was in and their response was "oh yeah, that is normal. Take the vicodine and try to lay down as much as you can". Thanks for the help!
I decided then to listen to my body, because God created it to handle these kinds of things. I have been laying down, still, and board out of my mind! It has been good because I can feel it helping. I have not taken the vicodine and my body must be doing a great job at cleaning because I have NEVER been in this much pain before! It is ok, each time I hurt I have been making up a song and that helps, maybe someday I will share that funny song with you...not right now because I am still adding to it :)
I miss my students and cannot wait to get back to normal. All you who have shared stories, hugs, comments here and on facebook, sent flowers....you guys rock! They have all helped so much and thank you! I have the best husband in the world! I have royally messed up his school schedule and yesterday he stayed home with me. I told him to go to school because he cannot help me heal, and he said no he can't, but he can help my heart! He is awesome and I do not deserve him!
Monday, May 10, 2010
After
Yesterday was Mother's Day and I have to say that I was sad on Mother's Day, but I do not have any negative feelings towards Mother's Day. I really feel like Luke and I will be able to conceive again and have a bunch of amazing children, and if for some reason we cannot or don't, we re going to move to Haiti where I am almost positive we will be adopting at least a million! :)
The pain and emptiness I feel stinks, but it is going to be ok. We went to the doctor today and everything seemed fine. The doctor feels that there was something wrong with the baby. It was not growing correctly and the body just knows what do do. Physically I am fine, no problems with anything and after 1 cycle we can try again. Who knows when that will happen, but we are praying for quick healing and a normal cycle (which I have always had).
I cannot tell you how much it has helped me to have all of your love and support! The Facebook messages and even the secret ones (all you know who you are), were so encouraging and helpful! I found such peace through you and from this doctor's appointment we feel uplifted and know that God has a plan, even if we do not understand it...that is when it is so comforting to have someone BIGGER then you to cling too, and that is exactly what we are doing. Thanks again!
Please join us in praying for a quick healing! I go back to the doctor next Monday for a check up! Love you all so much!
The pain and emptiness I feel stinks, but it is going to be ok. We went to the doctor today and everything seemed fine. The doctor feels that there was something wrong with the baby. It was not growing correctly and the body just knows what do do. Physically I am fine, no problems with anything and after 1 cycle we can try again. Who knows when that will happen, but we are praying for quick healing and a normal cycle (which I have always had).
I cannot tell you how much it has helped me to have all of your love and support! The Facebook messages and even the secret ones (all you know who you are), were so encouraging and helpful! I found such peace through you and from this doctor's appointment we feel uplifted and know that God has a plan, even if we do not understand it...that is when it is so comforting to have someone BIGGER then you to cling too, and that is exactly what we are doing. Thanks again!
Please join us in praying for a quick healing! I go back to the doctor next Monday for a check up! Love you all so much!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Gone
Well, our first doctor's appointment was Thursday! It was the coolest thing to lay on the doctor's bed and see my precious fetus pumping it's little heart! Also, on Thursday I had my routine pap smear which every women looks forward too (ya right!). After the appointment the doctor said "you may spot, but that is completely normal". I never, ever, never, EVER spot after these things, but sure enough I did on this one. Then it kept going...Friday I cam home from work with cramps, but couldn't tell if they were gas or what. I called the doctor who said, it was probably fine, but if it gets worse in any way to call back. Yesterday it did, and I called, and before I knew it I was heading to the ER with the chance that I was having a miscarriage....I was losing my baby. I got tons of blood taken out, tons of questions that needed to be answered, and a lot of waiting that needed to be done, and then FINALLY we were off to get a sonogram...... The tech asked to me to go to the bathroom to empty my bladder so that they could see what was going on better. When I went to the bathroom I knew I lost it, I will save you the gross details, but let me tell you it was traumatizing and something I will never forget! Once back on the bed for the sonogram, the tech was looking for something I knew no longer was there, she took pictures of kidneys, stomach, uterus...EVERYTHING! Poor Luke was looking over her shoulder and I knew he was looking for the answers to the questions going through his head; the ones I already knew the answers too. Later we were back in our room and the doctor came to confirm the worst...we lost our baby! It was sad and still is sad, but 50% of women miscarry within their first 20 weeks, and the chances of miscarrying again after that are 1%....so as far as we were told there is noting wrong with me and we will be trying again! It just wan't meant to be for this little one to come into the world. It was an awesome 7 weeks, and I thank God for every second of it!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Pregnant?!?!?
March 16th I went to Haiti to visit Luke who had been there doing earthquake relief work! Luke was in Haiti for about 2 months, so I was VERY excited to finally get to see him! Luke came back to Dallas a week later, and two weeks after that we found out we were pregnant!! I had been feeling a little "different" and knew something was up! I had the normal signs of pregnancy including spotting as the egg implanted, feeling sore as my hormones started pumping, and TIRED!! I wanted to take a test, but Luke wanted to wait until we were officially "late". The Thursday before I was "late" I begged Luke to let me get a test and he said yes. As I was in the car on the way to trusty walmart I started to freak! What if the test was positive? Negative? I didn't want this to be a depressing event if it was negative, but a "not yet, so we can keep having fun"! So wile walking into he store to get the test and all the way home I was praying. I was feeling quite peaceful if the test were to come out negative. I was relieved almost.
I finally got home, went into the bathroom, took the test, and immediately turned it over so I would not see it. Then I took it to the kitchen, set the timer, and joined Luke on the couch....longest three minutes EVER! When the timer went off I went to turn it off, Luke was still on the couch. I turned the test over and screamed!!! "I AM PREGNANT!!! LUKE WE ARE PREGNANT!!!" Luke just looked at me! I was freaking out because I totally expected the test to be negative! It was positive and we were going to have a baby!!! Now what?!?!!? Luke told me after I calmed down that by my scream he was not sure if my scream was good or bad...I was that surprised!
Now, when we went to the doctor we found out that my body was tricky and I am not as far along as we thought. We are only 6 weeks and 3 days instead of 8 weeks. The doctor said the heart beat looked strong and the baby looked good. We are totally excited!
I finally got home, went into the bathroom, took the test, and immediately turned it over so I would not see it. Then I took it to the kitchen, set the timer, and joined Luke on the couch....longest three minutes EVER! When the timer went off I went to turn it off, Luke was still on the couch. I turned the test over and screamed!!! "I AM PREGNANT!!! LUKE WE ARE PREGNANT!!!" Luke just looked at me! I was freaking out because I totally expected the test to be negative! It was positive and we were going to have a baby!!! Now what?!?!!? Luke told me after I calmed down that by my scream he was not sure if my scream was good or bad...I was that surprised!
Now, when we went to the doctor we found out that my body was tricky and I am not as far along as we thought. We are only 6 weeks and 3 days instead of 8 weeks. The doctor said the heart beat looked strong and the baby looked good. We are totally excited!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Victim Syndrome
Today I am suffering from what I like to call "Victim Syndrome" it is when I feel really bad about what is going on, and I mostly feel sorry for myself. Today in church I was waiting for people to ask me how Luke was doing...no one asked. Then I saw a person from my small group who did, but the conversation turned to their situation because I have not seen them in a while and wanted to know how they were doing. Then there is Joey and Jenna who always ask and Jenna deals with my craziness because she is awesome. I did not see them until after Sunday School so that doesn't really count anyway. Oh wait, there was that one lady who came up to me and said "Hi, I haven't seen Luke in a while"?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? YES SHE SAID THAT!!! AND did I mention that this lady is in our Sunday School class, and she was there when it was announced what Luke was doing....seriously!
Well this morning was a sad morning and I just wanted to be with Luke and hug him, but he is in Haiti still and being busy, being busy. Poor guy! He is working so hard and I am so proud of him! I just wish I could be with him! Today is the last day that I can just pick up the phone and call him. AT&T only gave us the month of February free, starting tomorrow everything is back to normal....great!
I know that I only have two more weeks until I can see him, but I have already gone a month! Shouldn't that be long enough? Ok, thanks for letting me vent, I am ok now. I had a great afternoon chilling out and ready for school this week. Hope you all have a fabulous Monday tomorrow!!
Well this morning was a sad morning and I just wanted to be with Luke and hug him, but he is in Haiti still and being busy, being busy. Poor guy! He is working so hard and I am so proud of him! I just wish I could be with him! Today is the last day that I can just pick up the phone and call him. AT&T only gave us the month of February free, starting tomorrow everything is back to normal....great!
I know that I only have two more weeks until I can see him, but I have already gone a month! Shouldn't that be long enough? Ok, thanks for letting me vent, I am ok now. I had a great afternoon chilling out and ready for school this week. Hope you all have a fabulous Monday tomorrow!!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Crazy Tuesday!!
I have had a five day weekend thanks to the snow. Most people were celebrating over that, I was baby sitting. Thursday I did have a chill out day, then Friday it started.... I had one of my students and her brother over for the weekend as their parents were heading out of town for the weekend. They were going to have the grandparents baby sit, but grandpa got sick so I helped out. On Saturday another student slept over and everyone went home on Sunday. Sunday night I had two different kiddos come over so their parents could enjoy a Valentine's dinner. I was happy to help, and even though it was not relaxing, it was fun! I am so ready for children! Monday was great and relaxing. I had no motivation to do anything, but managed to rearrange the living room and clean. Then Tuesday happened.....
First my lesson plans were all out of whack because of the two days off, then I had to scramble to make all the copies needed, three different folders for each students stuffed, progress reports are due, and my boss was coming in to do a formal evaluation. Oh, and did I mention that at some point I needed to run home and let me dogs out?!?!!? So I was ready to start running; got copies done before students came, progress reports finished during my first break, lunch was in the classrooms (so nothing got done), and then the eval came..... yeah......so the students were crazy because we just had 5 days off, then the school was giving out the carnations that students and parents bought for each other and it is a surprise to see how many flowers and who you got them from. Guess when the carnations got delivered............ DURING MY EVAL!!!!! Of course! I did not think the lesson went that well, but we were to find out at 4 when I had my meeting about the evaluation!
4:00 came...I went into his office and he said "well it wasn't your best day"...... that is not what I needed to get that rock in my stomach to go away. He noticed I was stressed by the day, but my eval was AWESOME!!!! Super encouraging and affirming :) He said I was great at teaching (basically I am great at being a kid and I have a "bubbly" personality) :P
So there you have it. When I got home I realized that my dogs chewed through the child safety locks and had a blast going through the cabinet..... so I cleaned, washed the floor, showered, and about to eat dinner. Happy Tuesday night :)
First my lesson plans were all out of whack because of the two days off, then I had to scramble to make all the copies needed, three different folders for each students stuffed, progress reports are due, and my boss was coming in to do a formal evaluation. Oh, and did I mention that at some point I needed to run home and let me dogs out?!?!!? So I was ready to start running; got copies done before students came, progress reports finished during my first break, lunch was in the classrooms (so nothing got done), and then the eval came..... yeah......so the students were crazy because we just had 5 days off, then the school was giving out the carnations that students and parents bought for each other and it is a surprise to see how many flowers and who you got them from. Guess when the carnations got delivered............ DURING MY EVAL!!!!! Of course! I did not think the lesson went that well, but we were to find out at 4 when I had my meeting about the evaluation!
4:00 came...I went into his office and he said "well it wasn't your best day"...... that is not what I needed to get that rock in my stomach to go away. He noticed I was stressed by the day, but my eval was AWESOME!!!! Super encouraging and affirming :) He said I was great at teaching (basically I am great at being a kid and I have a "bubbly" personality) :P
So there you have it. When I got home I realized that my dogs chewed through the child safety locks and had a blast going through the cabinet..... so I cleaned, washed the floor, showered, and about to eat dinner. Happy Tuesday night :)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Bipolar
I have never been bipolar, but I feel like I am! I mean there are some days, hours, minutes, and even seconds that I feel a million emotions all at once. This morning I felt great; got up started my routine with the dogs, getting myself ready for the day, then an hour later BAM! It hit me, I was a sobbing mess sitting in the chair trying to tell myself that I was going to be ok, and going to make it. I have been like this since Luke left! I have no idea what has gotten into me! I am not usually like this. I have a super cape and play survivor mode very well. I think my super cape lost it's powers!
As of now, I am feeling much better. I am baby sitting two kiddos for the weekend and they are great. It is keeping my mind from wandering where it shouldn't and allowing myself to pour into these guys. It is great!
I cannot wait to squeeze Luke!!! I miss him lots, but he is where he needs to be and he is pretty amazing! LOVE HIM TO PIECES!!
As of now, I am feeling much better. I am baby sitting two kiddos for the weekend and they are great. It is keeping my mind from wandering where it shouldn't and allowing myself to pour into these guys. It is great!
I cannot wait to squeeze Luke!!! I miss him lots, but he is where he needs to be and he is pretty amazing! LOVE HIM TO PIECES!!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Life
Luke and I were in the process of setting up out website that is super cool and we are super excited about it, but obviously it is on hold! We were going to connect all the blogs and it was just going to ROCK! But Luke is in Haiti and I don't know what I am doing with it, so we will have to wait until Luke comes back....if he comes back :) He will!
In other news, I am holding down the fort while Luke is working in Haiti. Champ and Riley are still alive and I haven't come close to selling them on ebay in at least five days! They have been doing awesome now that I have figured out a way to lock them in the kitchen. I will have to post pictures soon of that!
Yesterday I received a message from someone I use to work with who it way older then me. It was not a good message, and in fact it made my blood boil!!! I could not believe the arrogance of some people! It mentioned things like "just be lucky Luke isn't in the military fighting in a war and can come home in a month"....well that is true, however, he is fighting a war (just not for America), and the people who are fighting for our country I support and pray for, and it is their choice.....grrrrr, there were lots more to that message, but it's ok. I am praying for her heart and trying not to plan my attack, which I would like to but God would not like that.
So there you go. I have tons more to write about, but most get going on lesson plans and the cool frogs we are going to make today out of hearts :)
In other news, I am holding down the fort while Luke is working in Haiti. Champ and Riley are still alive and I haven't come close to selling them on ebay in at least five days! They have been doing awesome now that I have figured out a way to lock them in the kitchen. I will have to post pictures soon of that!
Yesterday I received a message from someone I use to work with who it way older then me. It was not a good message, and in fact it made my blood boil!!! I could not believe the arrogance of some people! It mentioned things like "just be lucky Luke isn't in the military fighting in a war and can come home in a month"....well that is true, however, he is fighting a war (just not for America), and the people who are fighting for our country I support and pray for, and it is their choice.....grrrrr, there were lots more to that message, but it's ok. I am praying for her heart and trying not to plan my attack, which I would like to but God would not like that.
So there you go. I have tons more to write about, but most get going on lesson plans and the cool frogs we are going to make today out of hearts :)
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