Today I am suffering from what I like to call "Victim Syndrome" it is when I feel really bad about what is going on, and I mostly feel sorry for myself. Today in church I was waiting for people to ask me how Luke was doing...no one asked. Then I saw a person from my small group who did, but the conversation turned to their situation because I have not seen them in a while and wanted to know how they were doing. Then there is Joey and Jenna who always ask and Jenna deals with my craziness because she is awesome. I did not see them until after Sunday School so that doesn't really count anyway. Oh wait, there was that one lady who came up to me and said "Hi, I haven't seen Luke in a while"?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? YES SHE SAID THAT!!! AND did I mention that this lady is in our Sunday School class, and she was there when it was announced what Luke was doing....seriously!
Well this morning was a sad morning and I just wanted to be with Luke and hug him, but he is in Haiti still and being busy, being busy. Poor guy! He is working so hard and I am so proud of him! I just wish I could be with him! Today is the last day that I can just pick up the phone and call him. AT&T only gave us the month of February free, starting tomorrow everything is back to normal....great!
I know that I only have two more weeks until I can see him, but I have already gone a month! Shouldn't that be long enough? Ok, thanks for letting me vent, I am ok now. I had a great afternoon chilling out and ready for school this week. Hope you all have a fabulous Monday tomorrow!!
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Sunday, February 28, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Crazy Tuesday!!
I have had a five day weekend thanks to the snow. Most people were celebrating over that, I was baby sitting. Thursday I did have a chill out day, then Friday it started.... I had one of my students and her brother over for the weekend as their parents were heading out of town for the weekend. They were going to have the grandparents baby sit, but grandpa got sick so I helped out. On Saturday another student slept over and everyone went home on Sunday. Sunday night I had two different kiddos come over so their parents could enjoy a Valentine's dinner. I was happy to help, and even though it was not relaxing, it was fun! I am so ready for children! Monday was great and relaxing. I had no motivation to do anything, but managed to rearrange the living room and clean. Then Tuesday happened.....
First my lesson plans were all out of whack because of the two days off, then I had to scramble to make all the copies needed, three different folders for each students stuffed, progress reports are due, and my boss was coming in to do a formal evaluation. Oh, and did I mention that at some point I needed to run home and let me dogs out?!?!!? So I was ready to start running; got copies done before students came, progress reports finished during my first break, lunch was in the classrooms (so nothing got done), and then the eval came..... yeah......so the students were crazy because we just had 5 days off, then the school was giving out the carnations that students and parents bought for each other and it is a surprise to see how many flowers and who you got them from. Guess when the carnations got delivered............ DURING MY EVAL!!!!! Of course! I did not think the lesson went that well, but we were to find out at 4 when I had my meeting about the evaluation!
4:00 came...I went into his office and he said "well it wasn't your best day"...... that is not what I needed to get that rock in my stomach to go away. He noticed I was stressed by the day, but my eval was AWESOME!!!! Super encouraging and affirming :) He said I was great at teaching (basically I am great at being a kid and I have a "bubbly" personality) :P
So there you have it. When I got home I realized that my dogs chewed through the child safety locks and had a blast going through the cabinet..... so I cleaned, washed the floor, showered, and about to eat dinner. Happy Tuesday night :)
First my lesson plans were all out of whack because of the two days off, then I had to scramble to make all the copies needed, three different folders for each students stuffed, progress reports are due, and my boss was coming in to do a formal evaluation. Oh, and did I mention that at some point I needed to run home and let me dogs out?!?!!? So I was ready to start running; got copies done before students came, progress reports finished during my first break, lunch was in the classrooms (so nothing got done), and then the eval came..... yeah......so the students were crazy because we just had 5 days off, then the school was giving out the carnations that students and parents bought for each other and it is a surprise to see how many flowers and who you got them from. Guess when the carnations got delivered............ DURING MY EVAL!!!!! Of course! I did not think the lesson went that well, but we were to find out at 4 when I had my meeting about the evaluation!
4:00 came...I went into his office and he said "well it wasn't your best day"...... that is not what I needed to get that rock in my stomach to go away. He noticed I was stressed by the day, but my eval was AWESOME!!!! Super encouraging and affirming :) He said I was great at teaching (basically I am great at being a kid and I have a "bubbly" personality) :P
So there you have it. When I got home I realized that my dogs chewed through the child safety locks and had a blast going through the cabinet..... so I cleaned, washed the floor, showered, and about to eat dinner. Happy Tuesday night :)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Bipolar
I have never been bipolar, but I feel like I am! I mean there are some days, hours, minutes, and even seconds that I feel a million emotions all at once. This morning I felt great; got up started my routine with the dogs, getting myself ready for the day, then an hour later BAM! It hit me, I was a sobbing mess sitting in the chair trying to tell myself that I was going to be ok, and going to make it. I have been like this since Luke left! I have no idea what has gotten into me! I am not usually like this. I have a super cape and play survivor mode very well. I think my super cape lost it's powers!
As of now, I am feeling much better. I am baby sitting two kiddos for the weekend and they are great. It is keeping my mind from wandering where it shouldn't and allowing myself to pour into these guys. It is great!
I cannot wait to squeeze Luke!!! I miss him lots, but he is where he needs to be and he is pretty amazing! LOVE HIM TO PIECES!!
As of now, I am feeling much better. I am baby sitting two kiddos for the weekend and they are great. It is keeping my mind from wandering where it shouldn't and allowing myself to pour into these guys. It is great!
I cannot wait to squeeze Luke!!! I miss him lots, but he is where he needs to be and he is pretty amazing! LOVE HIM TO PIECES!!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Life
Luke and I were in the process of setting up out website that is super cool and we are super excited about it, but obviously it is on hold! We were going to connect all the blogs and it was just going to ROCK! But Luke is in Haiti and I don't know what I am doing with it, so we will have to wait until Luke comes back....if he comes back :) He will!
In other news, I am holding down the fort while Luke is working in Haiti. Champ and Riley are still alive and I haven't come close to selling them on ebay in at least five days! They have been doing awesome now that I have figured out a way to lock them in the kitchen. I will have to post pictures soon of that!
Yesterday I received a message from someone I use to work with who it way older then me. It was not a good message, and in fact it made my blood boil!!! I could not believe the arrogance of some people! It mentioned things like "just be lucky Luke isn't in the military fighting in a war and can come home in a month"....well that is true, however, he is fighting a war (just not for America), and the people who are fighting for our country I support and pray for, and it is their choice.....grrrrr, there were lots more to that message, but it's ok. I am praying for her heart and trying not to plan my attack, which I would like to but God would not like that.
So there you go. I have tons more to write about, but most get going on lesson plans and the cool frogs we are going to make today out of hearts :)
In other news, I am holding down the fort while Luke is working in Haiti. Champ and Riley are still alive and I haven't come close to selling them on ebay in at least five days! They have been doing awesome now that I have figured out a way to lock them in the kitchen. I will have to post pictures soon of that!
Yesterday I received a message from someone I use to work with who it way older then me. It was not a good message, and in fact it made my blood boil!!! I could not believe the arrogance of some people! It mentioned things like "just be lucky Luke isn't in the military fighting in a war and can come home in a month"....well that is true, however, he is fighting a war (just not for America), and the people who are fighting for our country I support and pray for, and it is their choice.....grrrrr, there were lots more to that message, but it's ok. I am praying for her heart and trying not to plan my attack, which I would like to but God would not like that.
So there you go. I have tons more to write about, but most get going on lesson plans and the cool frogs we are going to make today out of hearts :)
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